I’m watching ‘Earthquake’ starring Charleton Heston, it’s been one of my favorite disaster films since I was a kid. I should be doing some cleaning around the house but I can’t bring myself to grab the vacuum. Lately, it seems like I just want to experience what’s familiar. I find myself watching movies I’ve seen a hundred times. I want to eat things that remind me of home. If I didn’t know any better I’d say I was homesick. Or maybe disoriented.
There’s been a lot of change in such a short span of time. I got married, moved to a new state, became a homeowner. Now I’m trying to find work that fulfills me while knowing full well we need to make ends meet. When I’m alone I just want to be still. I can get so full of anxiety sometimes that it feels like I’m going to burst when I think about everything that might be expected of me. Needless to say, there are days when I don’t accomplish much. Thankfully, my husband is being incredibly understanding of my feelings right now. Bless him!
I’m trying to set my mindset in a positive direction right now. That means I’m trying not to stress about small things. Like not having a dining table yet. I know that I’m incredibly blessed. Like I just got the cutest gift from McDonald’s just for being a big soccer dork on Twitter.
Which if you’re not following me on Twitter you’re missing out on some epic sports rants. And we had a great first 4th of July in Charleston. Didn’t get too crazy watching fireworks or anything because Isaac had to be at the hospital before dawn but we did a Detour App tour in Downtown Charleston during the day and then watched ‘Independence Day’ at night and that’s kind of the same thing. So we’re doing pretty great really.
I guess I just kind of wish writing was enough to get us what we need. And maybe it could be, just gotta figure out how to make it all click. If there’s anything you wish I would discuss more, feel free to let me know. Some days (like today) it can be hard to come up with a topic to discuss, so it’s helpful to know what you guys are interested in. Now I’m going to try to actually scrub the shower stall before my husband asks for a divorce. Wish me luck!